Sunday, July 31, 2011

The randomness of it all


Today's Topic: Circumstance

I must have a comforting face that people recognize. It doesn't seem to matter where or when I go but the most random events and even more random people seem to find me, approach me and are willing to have a conversation with me. About anything. For example, yesterday a pregnant 30 something year old came up and started talking to me in a cafe while I was waiting for my food. She literally told me her life story. What's even more interesting is that I wasn't really planning on going into the cafe at all, it just sort of happened while I was waiting for someone. It brought me to a place of realization and that random circumstance and events seem to control my life. And if anything, it's made me realize two things.

The first thing is about trust. People often pressure people to trust themselves, put their trust in individuals and in other people. The world is only as scary as we make it out to be. It's not so much about our own perception, but about the trust we put into someones hand (I never truly realized that until recent, but that is another sitdown topic in its entirety) It's hard to open up to someone and let people in, but yet people will do it, time and again, based solely on trust alone. Trust is in every day situations. You trust that the person making you your coffee isn't going to put anything into it and on the flip side, the person making it trusts that you're going to enjoy it and pay for it. When you get into a cab, you're trusting that the driver will get you to your destination quickly and safely, and they trust that when you get there, you'll pay your bill. It really makes the world go round.

The second thing I realized is that random events happen every day and that you're not the only one who's happy, upset, depressed, confused, energetic, drunk, thoughtful or embarrassed. I'm not the only one who met a stranger at that exact moment, that exact location in that city. It happened somewhere else too. I began to think of the millions of cafe's around the world, the millions of people in them, and wondered if circumstance had led someone else to having the same conversation that I had with a person. Odds would say yes, that patterns and events leading up to moments makes you believe that. You're probably asking yourself at this point, who the hell thinks of this stuff anyway Donnie? I sometimes catch myself thinking the same thing.

I really believe that at some point in your life, everyone realizes how insignificant each one of us is on our own. That you will at some point give up on yourself and wonder why do it all anyway. Why does it even matter. You live and die. That's it. The in between in all of that is just humans walking around, eating and drinking. People spend their entire lives trying to plan for something and finding THE answer, when 99% of the time, it's staring them right in the face. Life is a mess, and people screw up. But I believe that it really is out of our control and we all do our best to interact and find happiness. Random circumstance makes me this way and life is an uncontrollable pattern of events that unravels one day at a time. The sooner you embrace that, the sooner you live.